Respect and entitled

So I admire my dad a lot. Our relationship has always been a father/son or teacher/student relationship. And it has not always been healthy, sometimes we fight because it was just me him and mom in the house and I was a teenager.

At this point in my life I am searching for roots and a place to locate myself as an adult. My desire is to be treated like my father is, he is respected in his social circles, he has the things I want.

And in my life now, I feel like when I don't receive the same respect that goes to my Dad I am obviously hurt, but I also feel a sense of entitlement that these things are my birthright or something. (Thoughts aren't super clear on this, best with me)

That's kinda where I am, just felt like it was important to write this down.

I love God for giving me this opportunity to look at relationships with a lense I don't always get to use, 💚

I might talk with dad about this is the future, looking forward with hope.

That's all for now

Ministry

Where do I feel called to serve in ministry?

High school and junior high I was always doing summer camps and after school kids clubs. In Kaleo I was very involved in the Camp Qwanoes ministry; weekend retreats, outreach, missions trips. And in Nanaimo I was a youth group leader, and I had the chance to get very close with that youth group over the year and during those events.

After that I still had small involvements during summers and such, but I didn't really have my roots down, not at Briercrest or at home, aside from family connections.  

I'll try to remember to talk more about my 2015 year later.

That's all for now

The Voice of Truth

I wanna open with a word of prayer;

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. (Hebrews 11:6, NIV) I pray for wisdom, and that You would bless those in my life, and continue to renew my Spirit as I desire to walk the path you have for me.

I sent this to my prayer group;

In other quick news, I'm asking for prayer with wisdom, I'm looking for a new apartment/room to rent. And it's looking that those who I'm currently renting with aren't pleased with that news. Prayer that I would be able to be at peace with the plan that God guides me to, and hope that there are no hurt feelings or burned bridges when I leave my current situation

To frame this: I've never been one to speak into another's life without many clear signals and insight into their life. For Jackie & Becky, I haven't felt that I am the one with words to speak into their life, and I've honoured them in that way.

But I am still not at peace with my living situation, and I've been calling out to God with all of my heard for the wisdom in this situation.

For now that's all

Looking Forward

So just a quick welcome to anyone who is new here (mostly me, actually this post is entirely for me yup), I haven't really had a place to write down my Chrostian reflections, insights, and other things that have I've been led to.

So that's basically what this is all about. A journal/blog/page where I'll be putting into words the things that are on my heard.

This past weekend the idea of being truly genuine and open and honest was a big part of that Workshop, and I'd like to pursue that going forward, so I'll be using this as a sort of springboard where I can organize my thoughts before I go out and  do the things that I've been learning.

That's all for now!

Review of Single Life Workshop

Preface to my actual writings,

I haven't really spent much time writing down my thoughts outside of a workshop or der miner setting.

I'm also not going to filter or review these things so that will come in time.

Weekend was awesome, met 7 beautiful individuals who inspired me to go deeper spiritually than I've event been before to be honest.

That's all for now, my inspiration comes in fits and starts especially when I'm busy doing other stuff so hopefully I'll get that done

Online Ministry Journal nummer nio

These past eight months have been the most influential of my life.

Online Ministry Journal número ocho

Well this last weekend I had the privilege of being a senior Counselor for my first time in essentially ever. Ministering to young kids has been something that I have helped with in the past, junior counselling at camps and after school kids clubs, so I was quite glad God provided this opportunity for me. Going into the weekend I was quite nervous, but my fears were settled by the fine leaders that I had. Since I was able to talk to Janelle and Leader Nick, our student leaders, about my worries, they gave me a lot of good information that I took into the weekend. With the help of the group around me I was able to succeed in counselling that weekend, it was really encouraging to be able to talk with people who had already gone to the things that I was going through, so that was one particular thing that I appreciated about the ministry here at camp.
During the Juniors retreat, I was paired with a Junior counselor, Brayden, and overall, it was a good growing experience. As a cabin, Brayden, the 6 boys, and I had a lot of fun with AllStar games, Q-Town, and swimming. The cabin team games were probably the most memorable thing of the weekend, probably due to the fact that we were going through the games as a cabin team, rather than just as individuals, as was the case with the wide game. Being able to guide my campers from one activity to the next was definitely an awesome opportunity to lead for me; it was memorable because I got to succeed with my cabin.
Throughout the weekend, I learned that a few of my campers were not necessarily professed Christians, but that was a good opportunity to lead them to that relationship with Christ. The way I saw God working during the retreat was in how I got to see my campers look to figure out more about God; so they could have a deeper relationship with him. One time during our cabin discussions, Craig started asking some really deep questions about evil in the world, relating to Gods sovereignty. It was really encouraging to see that even at such a young age these guys were asking tough questions, looking for good answers.