Monday updates?

I'll see if I can make my schedule to update Monday's, that's a good time and consistent with some of my previous ones.

Making a reminder now

That's all for now!

Edit Jun 19/16

I meant to put Tuesday but math is hard

Been a while

Moved into my new place with an awesome Christian family, it's been a while since my last update so here I am.

I need to work on my meal schedule, especially organizing and planning future meals, lunches are getting kinda meh and suppers are similar,

Still pretty salty about the whole situation, I want to do the whole avoid talking for a couple months until everyone simmers down, but obviously life doesn't work that way, so at some point I'll be seeing them, and I'm not sure how that'll go.

I've had a chance to talk with those whose opinions and thoughts I value, and I'm still in the process of thinking through everything that's happened, the what and why of everything. That's going to be a bit of a process, so no super powerful insights just yet.

Goona focus on getting the necessities done at the house, everything else will be done as the priorities are needed.

That's all for now.

Ps: nostalgia: Gives you Hell by the white stripes? High school band

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Whet motivates me? Where does my reasoning come from? What reinforces my decisions and what makes me reconsider them?

That's been on my mind since I'm in a situation where I've been making decisions that are much farther from my ideal scenario than I would hope.

Respect and entitled

So I admire my dad a lot. Our relationship has always been a father/son or teacher/student relationship. And it has not always been healthy, sometimes we fight because it was just me him and mom in the house and I was a teenager.

At this point in my life I am searching for roots and a place to locate myself as an adult. My desire is to be treated like my father is, he is respected in his social circles, he has the things I want.

And in my life now, I feel like when I don't receive the same respect that goes to my Dad I am obviously hurt, but I also feel a sense of entitlement that these things are my birthright or something. (Thoughts aren't super clear on this, best with me)

That's kinda where I am, just felt like it was important to write this down.

I love God for giving me this opportunity to look at relationships with a lense I don't always get to use, 💚

I might talk with dad about this is the future, looking forward with hope.

That's all for now

Ministry

Where do I feel called to serve in ministry?

High school and junior high I was always doing summer camps and after school kids clubs. In Kaleo I was very involved in the Camp Qwanoes ministry; weekend retreats, outreach, missions trips. And in Nanaimo I was a youth group leader, and I had the chance to get very close with that youth group over the year and during those events.

After that I still had small involvements during summers and such, but I didn't really have my roots down, not at Briercrest or at home, aside from family connections.  

I'll try to remember to talk more about my 2015 year later.

That's all for now

The Voice of Truth

I wanna open with a word of prayer;

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. (Hebrews 11:6, NIV) I pray for wisdom, and that You would bless those in my life, and continue to renew my Spirit as I desire to walk the path you have for me.

I sent this to my prayer group;

In other quick news, I'm asking for prayer with wisdom, I'm looking for a new apartment/room to rent. And it's looking that those who I'm currently renting with aren't pleased with that news. Prayer that I would be able to be at peace with the plan that God guides me to, and hope that there are no hurt feelings or burned bridges when I leave my current situation

To frame this: I've never been one to speak into another's life without many clear signals and insight into their life. For Jackie & Becky, I haven't felt that I am the one with words to speak into their life, and I've honoured them in that way.

But I am still not at peace with my living situation, and I've been calling out to God with all of my heard for the wisdom in this situation.

For now that's all

Looking Forward

So just a quick welcome to anyone who is new here (mostly me, actually this post is entirely for me yup), I haven't really had a place to write down my Chrostian reflections, insights, and other things that have I've been led to.

So that's basically what this is all about. A journal/blog/page where I'll be putting into words the things that are on my heard.

This past weekend the idea of being truly genuine and open and honest was a big part of that Workshop, and I'd like to pursue that going forward, so I'll be using this as a sort of springboard where I can organize my thoughts before I go out and  do the things that I've been learning.

That's all for now!