Netflix and time management

NSo since I've been back from Calgary I've been thinking about what there is around Victoria Trail to do, and I think I've gotta spend less time procrastinating and more time out and about and discovering new stuff in Edmonton.

I could find a bike, that would make exploring more interesting.

Running around my area is another option, but that brings in the motivation and laziness factor again.

Driving is an easy option, but meandering around Edmonton doesn't always work well, since many Edmonton drivers aren't too happy when someone's lolly gagging down the road.

Anyways, the whole reason I started thinking about this stuff was when I was realizing how much time I spent (once I'm off work) on Netflix. I think last night alone I watched two full movies, Middion Impossible 5, and Bridge of Spies. Although I was asleep for most of Bridge of Spies since I had seen it several weeks ago in Saskatoon, but I digress.

I think my motivation last night was so minimal because I was trying to do dishes and season my cast iron at the same time, so I felt like I had "earned" my time off.

Not sure exactly what I'm gettin at but I think that's all for now.

Church experiences

So what I usually do is write down notes at which ever church, bible study, or seminar I'm attending, but I think I'll see what sort of reflections or insight that I can put onto paper.

Champion City Church:

Today was the baptism service, and here's a quick snapshot of what I wrote down this morning:

Baby Justice

2016 Graduates

Luke chapter 9 verse 60

"Let the dead bury the dead."

Gods business becomes priority number 1 - seek first the Kingdom of God.

Baptism: Ursla, Bryanna, Jessica, Janiele, Brenda, Nicholas, Alisha, Kimberlyn

Wow! So, baby Justice is cute, 8 lbs 14 oz, big baby. The graduates, obviously I'm looking to be involved in the youth and children's ministry at CCC, so knowing who is attending there is good. 

The baptism was really awesome! Even though I don't know anyone personally being able to see my brothers and sisters take the next step in their journey is a huge praise moment.

After church I was able to meet a few new people at the church; I think I stayed an extra hour just talking with people! One couple in particular, Tim and Judy, really engaged me in conversation. They're such an awesome Godly couple, and I look forward to having a relationship with them.

The Project Church at Millwoods Assembly: written notes:

The Project "Love" is the theme for this month.

I was Mia last week :3

Tonight is the worship leader Ryan's last night - Moving to Millwoods Assembly mornings Sendoff

Thomas sermon:

He's a Movie Snob who loves Revenge stories: The Count of Monte Christo

Dante vs Fernando

Justice is demanded! "They must pay for what they've done."

Forgiveness is the more heroic choice. To break the cycle to sacrifice what seems fair for what will do the most good.

Forgiveness does not mean to forget. The type of forgiveness that God offers us does not contain forgetfulness. God understands and sees everything we do.

When God forgives us he renews his work within us.

Forgiveness =\ forgetting, but giving someone a chance to become someone different.

Why do it? Because I know the freedom to be let off the hook. When someone says, "I forgive you," there is a weight lifted off my chest.

Isaiah 1:18 - Sins white as snow

Acts 3:19 - Turn to God, so your sins may be wiped away

- Stop keeping score, it is in our human nature. Not 7 times,       |ALWAYS FORGIVE|

- Get a good mirror. Take time to reflect + remember when you've been forgiven.

- Rebuke when you've been wronged but forgive when they repent. Luke 17:3. 'Rebuke a brother in love, and forgive when he repents.'

- Forgiving someone does not automatically make them trustworthy. "Love forgives the most but condones the least."

These things take time.

Pray for permission. Permission to feel differently, to think differently about that person. Forgiveness is an internal thing.

We texted the things we were forgiven for and they displayed them on the screen. Powerful stuff.

"I loved you first." God does not ask us to do anything he himself did not do.

Church was awesome today.

That's all for now

Star Wars The Clone Wars

The Yoda series is incredibly spiritual and emotional.

S6Ep10,11,12(13)

Confusion, anger, sadness, joy, and serenity. Core emotions?

There was a meditation part that Yoda and the Jedi council took part in that was easily recognizable in meditation or prayer circles.

The writing in these episodes is excellent, the guidance of the light for Yoda facing his hubris is very well done.

That's all for now.

Organization

For me, organization is definitely a very important part of my life. That isn't to say that I claim OCD whenever someone moves my water bottles, but I do go out of my way to arrange, locate, store and organize my belongings.

Since I've been solo, I've been able to come at my life and environment head on, and that looks different for different parts of my life, including my electronic information, my food and pantry, my paper documents and notes, my room and clothing, and many other parts of my life.

I really enjoy coming into a situation with a clean slate, my new Netflix account, for example.

I broke it into 4 parts. Anime, tv shows, movies, and an extra for the unorganized, or what have you.

Being able to recreate this from scratch really gives me freedom to grow in the context of Netflixs' suggestions, and the algorithms that are available to find new content online.

Yeah, basically just a post of me talking about how I like to for everything to have a place, while also being given the freedom to decide where that place is, and organizing it as I see fit.

That's all for now!

Tv show reviews?

Well I guess I need to write about the cool stuff I learn from tv

Star Wars the clone wars s5 Ep.6

"Find courage, hope, patience, trust, confidence, selflessness." -Yoda

These kids, going to die because it's before the Chosen Ones betrayal, but the writing on that episode was so cool. The mind of a child is truly amazing.

The gathering is the Christal search test, where they truly learn something about themselves and conquer their insecurities. 

That's all for now.

Habit building update

Not much going on in terms of conflict, so that's nice, but also doesn't give me as much to write about.

Environment is good, missed The Project church last week because I felt lackadaisical, no real reason there, I guess I did have quite a good sermon for Father's Day so that was nice, still, I should have just gotten off my butt and worked and been productive. Next time though.

Work is good, trying to look into my career future here, researching what sort of wage is expected and how close I compare to my coworkers. Long term plans are the same, education and a future in something that fuels my passion; not sure how far off that will be, though...

Maybe I'll buy eggs & bananas since I'm in a hotel for the week, and there's the nice mini fridge and toaster plus kettle at the sandman.

That's all for now.

Plans

Writing down the things that are important in my life, especially in Edmonton. Things I go out of my way to do, and some habits I might have dropped over the years.

Habits include:

Life:

Shaving

Brushing teeth

Cutting hair

Flossing

Cooking (planning, buying, preparing)

Cleaning (car, recycling, rooms, organization, dishes, bathroom, basement, vacuuming, fridge/freezer)

Electronic (online information, picture organization, server setup, etc)

Exercise (body weight fitness, Fitbit, Shaun T, pickup sports, etc)

Cubing 

Tetris

Board games

Video games

Skype talks

Outdoors

God:

Ministry (Champion City Church, Encounter small group, children in my life)

Community (bible study, Church, The Project, small group, coffee/tea?, phone calls, texts, social sports, etc)

Academics (playing piano/guitar/music, learning languages, finishing @ Briercrest, looking into my future: IT, HR, teaching)

Leadership (mentorship, children's ministry, social slack-lining, small group talks, one on one at work)

Adventure (explore Edmonton, drive, run , meet, Edmonton Piano, Hermitage Ravine, local events in Edmonton, Kochopelli, etc

Maybe I'll update this list, maybe I'll create a new one .

Either way that's all for now.

Thoughts

Glad I talked with my oldest sister, seems like she's pretty knowledgeable about life and such.

Goona write down my thoughts in point for for posterity:

This is essentially my looking forward letter to Becky & Jackie, for our relationship in the future.

Open with

I'm sorry for the way things happened, I regret that this happened this way 

-Acknowledge my part in the miscommunication that happened

-Confirm that I still love them and they're still family

-Say that I hope to rebuild our relationship in the future

Whenever you feel ready,

-Want to sit down and have a talk, maybe not now since it's pretty recent, but maybe in the future Jana can also facilitate that discussion

-I forgive you for whatever you said that was in the heat of the moment

-Ask for forgivenesses?

The conversation went well, I left a letter for Becky and has a good talk with Jackie, things are pretty good.

That's all for now.

Monday updates?

I'll see if I can make my schedule to update Monday's, that's a good time and consistent with some of my previous ones.

Making a reminder now

That's all for now!

Edit Jun 19/16

I meant to put Tuesday but math is hard

Been a while

Moved into my new place with an awesome Christian family, it's been a while since my last update so here I am.

I need to work on my meal schedule, especially organizing and planning future meals, lunches are getting kinda meh and suppers are similar,

Still pretty salty about the whole situation, I want to do the whole avoid talking for a couple months until everyone simmers down, but obviously life doesn't work that way, so at some point I'll be seeing them, and I'm not sure how that'll go.

I've had a chance to talk with those whose opinions and thoughts I value, and I'm still in the process of thinking through everything that's happened, the what and why of everything. That's going to be a bit of a process, so no super powerful insights just yet.

Goona focus on getting the necessities done at the house, everything else will be done as the priorities are needed.

That's all for now.

Ps: nostalgia: Gives you Hell by the white stripes? High school band

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Whet motivates me? Where does my reasoning come from? What reinforces my decisions and what makes me reconsider them?

That's been on my mind since I'm in a situation where I've been making decisions that are much farther from my ideal scenario than I would hope.

Respect and entitled

So I admire my dad a lot. Our relationship has always been a father/son or teacher/student relationship. And it has not always been healthy, sometimes we fight because it was just me him and mom in the house and I was a teenager.

At this point in my life I am searching for roots and a place to locate myself as an adult. My desire is to be treated like my father is, he is respected in his social circles, he has the things I want.

And in my life now, I feel like when I don't receive the same respect that goes to my Dad I am obviously hurt, but I also feel a sense of entitlement that these things are my birthright or something. (Thoughts aren't super clear on this, best with me)

That's kinda where I am, just felt like it was important to write this down.

I love God for giving me this opportunity to look at relationships with a lense I don't always get to use, 💚

I might talk with dad about this is the future, looking forward with hope.

That's all for now

Ministry

Where do I feel called to serve in ministry?

High school and junior high I was always doing summer camps and after school kids clubs. In Kaleo I was very involved in the Camp Qwanoes ministry; weekend retreats, outreach, missions trips. And in Nanaimo I was a youth group leader, and I had the chance to get very close with that youth group over the year and during those events.

After that I still had small involvements during summers and such, but I didn't really have my roots down, not at Briercrest or at home, aside from family connections.  

I'll try to remember to talk more about my 2015 year later.

That's all for now

The Voice of Truth

I wanna open with a word of prayer;

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. (Hebrews 11:6, NIV) I pray for wisdom, and that You would bless those in my life, and continue to renew my Spirit as I desire to walk the path you have for me.

I sent this to my prayer group;

In other quick news, I'm asking for prayer with wisdom, I'm looking for a new apartment/room to rent. And it's looking that those who I'm currently renting with aren't pleased with that news. Prayer that I would be able to be at peace with the plan that God guides me to, and hope that there are no hurt feelings or burned bridges when I leave my current situation

To frame this: I've never been one to speak into another's life without many clear signals and insight into their life. For Jackie & Becky, I haven't felt that I am the one with words to speak into their life, and I've honoured them in that way.

But I am still not at peace with my living situation, and I've been calling out to God with all of my heard for the wisdom in this situation.

For now that's all

Looking Forward

So just a quick welcome to anyone who is new here (mostly me, actually this post is entirely for me yup), I haven't really had a place to write down my Chrostian reflections, insights, and other things that have I've been led to.

So that's basically what this is all about. A journal/blog/page where I'll be putting into words the things that are on my heard.

This past weekend the idea of being truly genuine and open and honest was a big part of that Workshop, and I'd like to pursue that going forward, so I'll be using this as a sort of springboard where I can organize my thoughts before I go out and  do the things that I've been learning.

That's all for now!